Please...

I know there are those out there who don’t believe in any god let alone my God. I’ve heard them say so many times, that people who believe in God are just trying to give themselves something to look forward to. In a way they’re right, although probably not the way they think. I am looking forward to something. You see, my mind can only begin to comprehend the thought of an after life. I believe in it, yet I can't totally wrap my mind around the idea of it. I can however comprehend faith, hope and love in a world that desperately needs redemption.

You see, my heart of stone is no more, and although I have a long way to go, I have to stop and thank my God that I’m not who I was. Who I was, was of this world. I thought the world was fine the way it is. I didn’t believe the world needed any change. I was fooled into thinking things were, "OK". I was the worst of all. I watched the news like everyone else. I know the problems we face, but I never wanted to put a face to it. Hunger, murder, rape, war, disease, abortion, adultery, divorce, age… the list goes on and on but the truth is each of these “words” carries a million faces. And each of those carry a story. We’ve conveniently categorized tragedy into simple “words” in order to desensitize peoples stories. To me, this brings reality and urgency to the “words” and truth about our existence. The truth is things aren’t going very well.

So yes. Yes I am looking forward to something. But what that is, is bigger than me. And I pray that He redeems us all. Worst of all, me.